How true is this? thought it will be fun to share ;p

pheww...

Im extremely glad that Im finally done with my MA. I hope all those long hours of reading in the library, mengusut-ing to motivate myself and sleepless nights will be worth it :) Will only know it for sure in January 2008. Of course there are things that I wished Ive done differently, but hey..why do you want to look back when your whole future is ahead of you right..;)

Few more weeks before Im back in Brunei..wishing time will pass by slowly so that I have more time here..;p Will pack next week and hopefully I will travel back to Brunei very light. Ngalih sudah carrrying heavy luggage to London and then to Bolton. So need to travel light.

Raya is coming soon. The plan is to go up to dundee for a couple of days before heading off to London and pick up my ticket to go back home...and hopefully I will write more then ;)

Selamat hari raya and maaf zahir batin to everyone...esp to my family and close friends.

Love you all.

SELAMAT BERPUASA

SIMPLE SIGNS TO FOLLOW IF URE 'LOST' THIS MONTH....;p

LAST POST

So I did say the last post will be my last post..but i was wrong. We still have internet today though its been cancelled..except that the phone doesnt work anymore.

Anyway, not going to say much here...well, I will try not too. Just want to jot down stuffs that is in my head at the moment. I feel like blogging about it now, but its better if i do it next time when i have more time to blog.

My housemate, a friend and I have been talking endlessly today about everything and anything that comes to mind..and few things lingers on my mind...its basically abt relationship and life...what better topic can girls talk abt when potential guysss are around..;p

1)I know love works in its mysterious ways and for all we know, our 'jodoh' might be someone who has been hanging around our entire life..isnt that scary!! So in my head right now...I'm thinking...'OMG...seriously..WHo is going to be my jodoh? The 'waiting' is nerve wrecking..

2)And what if my 'jodoh' turns out to be one of the guys that I could never stand or what if he is the one I always argued with...geram hati with...and find annoying... im always avoiding...etc etc etc...

3)What if my family doesnt approve? What do I do then...

4)How can we be sure if that guy is the one for us?? How can anyone be sure he/she is marrying the one??? IS it worth taking a risk?

5)What if you are not ready to be married...but there are marriage proposals...do you say NO..or do you take time and think about it... or do you say YES though u r not ready for it...

6)How do you break the news to the family?

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And when you are waiting or are going out with a guy/girl...

How long do you have to wait...to be sure to take the relationship onto another level?

How many chances do you give your partner?

How much can you take...and when do you say enough is enough when you dont get the same 'input' from the other side? How long do you wait before you decide u have enough?
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And on another topic...an equally important one...

I know people say that family ties are think macam *blood*...but do you just stay quiet or do you confront them when you realized that you were led to believe something that is not true...

something that is of the most important thing in ur life...something that you grow up to believe...but only to find out later that it is not entirely TRUE...

What do you do then when some of ur life principles are based on the 'make believe facts'..Maybe some things were said and done to 'protect' us...to prevent us from getting hurt or feeling like its 'our fault'...or to prevent us from making the same 'mistakes'..etc etc etc...but isnt honesty the best policy??

Things that I've managed to suppressed all these times are coming back to the surface..and I'm unable to decide whether it did happened or not...

so, I better stop now before I continue with my nonsense ramblings..will leave it at that till next time.

Have fun people...and take things easy. Think before you speak..words are like a rainbow on the sky or like a bullet to the heart. choose wisely..:)

Empty space

My housemate and I have finally shifted away all the packed boxes to go for shipment tomorrow. She has been spending her time packing away her stuffs while I attempt to work on my thesis...though it looks like packing = soo much fun compared to sitting on my ass reading and motivating myself to type and finish up my work..:)

Now the house is empty...empty spaces in the living room...arah the hallway...our rooms empty pun...(except for mine coz i havent packed it away..) my luggage looks barat to be surung already...

NO TV...usually thursday night..i will watch 10 years younger...then big brother the whole night through unless theres something better to watch. TV is a must every night..its better than the sunyi-ness that fills the living room now.

And this is our last night to enjoy the INTERNET!! It will be cancelled tomorrow..so no tv, no internet,..can you guys believe it...how can we survive??dramatic jua eh. I have become sooo addicted to the internet..esp the youtube and bloghopping.. so maybe it is a good thing that I will be away from it in sept..unless i make time to go to the internet cafes. If not, then I guess there should be more progress on my work..;p

Anyway, just to let u guys know..esp the family..im leaving canterbury this sunday...I will be spending my whole September di Brunei Hall. Hopefully my work will be completely done after the first two weeks there...before puasa starts. The plan is to store junkfoods, juice and fruits in my room so that I dont really have to go out..unless i need fresh air..;)besides, I dont really know anyone there so it gets really boring..unless i decide to meet up with my friend who is coming to UK mid sept..yay!!

ok then, I guess this is my last update for the month. I will update it when I do find time to go to the internet cafe..if not then the next update will be in October ok.

Just incase I dont update it in September...just an advance 'SELAMAT BERPUASA DI BULAN RAMADHAN' and mudahan all our prayers will be heard and wishes granted. Amin!!

Have Fun!! xxx

Got many things that I want to talk about..but its a bit too private to be discussed here..maybe next time.

Anyway, as I am officially one of the many many youtube addicts...ive posted another clip from youtube. check out this song only if u want to...the lyrics kinda repetitive..but the beat to the song is nice, the guy is good looking..and i find the moves lawa..so enjoy..

If that's ok with you - Shayne Ward

View from the balcony..

Loving this song..

...nice n simple lyrics with a unique sketchy clip...



note: if it stops halfway..just click from where it stopped, it will continue..dont knw why but it works.

AUGUST 13th...

Its also a special day for the left handed people...like myself..according to the 'hot topic' on msn today ;)

It is said that left handed people are seen to bring bad luck...and history were 'unkind' to them..thanks to the Romans who has dramatized this whole thing of being 'left handed'. Luckily for me, I was not alive during those days..lol.

I personally think it doesnt matter whether ure a left or right handed though there seem to be a lot of issues about it..not that I will bother myself to read it. Nanti saja when im bored n jobless..;)

All that I can recall, when I was a lil kid...I do remember being told to do more things with my right hand...for example, when I 'put' things in my mouth, hold my spoon, my pencil..mengaut makanan and all sort of stuffs. It was hard when ur left hand will automatically reach out for things when u need to ambil barang..for example. So sometimes, I had to remind myself to do it with my right hand before reaching out for things. And I do recall being a lil annoyed when everything I did was being watched and salah.

But, I have to say that of course I still do alot of things with my left hand...it feels more comfortable for me. And sometimes I do have to remind myself to 'change hands' especially when eating with a spoon or fork because eating with the left hand is not good...culturally and religiously I suppose. But one thing I really cant change is when I eat with chopsticks...it must be the left hand coz with my right hand..i dont even know how to hold it properly. So, it is safer to makan with tangan..atleast I always use my right one..;p

And it is impolite to shake hands or receive gifts or pasing barang etc etc with the left hand...which is not a problem for me as I do pass/take etc things from others with my right hand out of habit. Its only when my right hand is occupied with other brg or dirty..that I use my left hand, even then, I apologise to them right on the spot.

Oohh...I remembered when I was in primary 5 or was it 6...I used to argue alot with this boy from pakistan/india (cant remember)..maybe his name was rashid or arshad..entah eh. Anyway, the point is..I was sitting on his right side...so when we do our work..especially when we have to copy things from the blackboard...my elbow usually banged into his elbow..and vice versa. and ofcourse, being a kid..we usually fight over stuffs like this between ourselves. Haha. I remembered thinking 'this boy is fussy n unfriendly'. Initially I said sorry, but eventually it turns out to be a 'game' I enjoyed simply because he was a perfectionist n wants his work to be neat..and I was too. So, I have to admit sometimes I did it on purpose when he is writing far ahead of me n when Im bored..and he did the same to me as well. So, we r even I guess. Hahaha. Funny, the little things that you remember..

Ok guys,I think thats all for now. Want to get back to my 'unprogressing work'..;)

Takecare.



*ok..ok..I give up.I dont have a problem with you being one of the left handers* ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK MENG

I know it was yesterday...but its never too late to post something about it right :)

Enjoy the few pics that I have of you...lol...coz most of the time, u r behind the camera...;p

Hope you had a good day and wishing you a better year to look forward to..;p

Takecare.

Lots of love,
selina

Current state of mind!!

This is another boring post of how Im bored with my student life here...well, the first part will be more boring than the second part..(i hope);p I dont enjoy my uni here.. those who often meet up with me in canterbury would probably realize that already and might be bored to death listening to me when I do get into those *mood* where the only think that is in my head is..'I should have looked for more unis before'..and 'how buruk my uni is'..correction; 'how buruk my faculty is'. Haha. Ofcourse, others who studies here..some may agree with me..but most might not. But I will still feel the same about this uni.

Anyway, despite not enjoying the uni..I have to say that Canterbury is a very interesting place. With the gorgeous architectural work done on the Cathedral Church..where sometimes you can hear the bells early in the morning, the Westgate Gardens with a small river right in the middle of town..colourful flowers arranged...and Starbucks right next to the entrance of the Cathedral...shops, abandoned castle, wednesdays and fridays market where u can shop for fresh strawberries and cherries..etc etc...Its a small and pretty town with something to look forward to every weekend if you decide to go to town.

Last week, after I got back from Bolton. I decide to walk around town before heading to Tesco to buy a few things for me to munch on. It was not too buzy...but there was this interesting cute dude playing on his saxophone...moving to the left and right..dancing around while people sit on the available benches to watch him. It was soo sexy. I took a video of him on my camera..but unfortunately I could not download it to my laptop coz my laptop cant read any music or video files anymore. Only youtube works..;)Anyway, this is a picture of him...swaying around in the middle of town..;)



Anyway, i guess thats all...im still in my *lazy mode*...so will write more when I want to type what I wana say...;)

Have fun people..

He must be the weirdest guy of the month in Cantebury!! ;p



After I found what I was looking for earlier, I decided to have 'me time' at Starbucks. And I saw the guy above...First impression when I saw him masuk starbucks was...'eh, panas eh boots nya ah..how can he wear that on such a hot day'..

Then as he was queueing he was humming this song (i cant figure it out though)..then he decided to sit outside again before walking in..humming..and finally bought a raspberry frappucino.

He is one weird guy who entertained me..and possibly a few others.

As he sat outside, he took out a doll and a soft toy (a lil puppy) and his small trumpet out of his bag and arrange it on the table. When people passed by, he talked to them..though im not sure if people understood him as they just walked past him. And when this bunch of kids passed him, he took his soft toy and said 'Wuff! Wuff!'..hahaha... coincidentally one of the kids had a puppy toy..so she showed off hers to him and said Wuff Wuff in return. It made me and a few others smile.

And whenever a car passed by...he will blow his trumpet..often caught passerbys by surprise..haha..lain yang di trumpet nya...lain yang terasa..lol.

Of course I couldnt resist it but to stop and take his picture before I went off. So, maybe that is the highlight of my quiet Sunday...;p

New hard drive..

Its a sunday, so I decided to go to town and survey the prices for external hard drives. Went to currys..but there were only two options. So planned to check out pc world..but in the end, found one at comet..and realizing that I dont want to walk any further to pc world under the hot sun, I bought it..:)



Nice huh...and I never thought that sorting and transferring pictures can take ages..Ive spent 3 hrs ish just emptying my laptop. And now theres only a few files left..need to decide to keep it or delete it ;)

Birthday Wishes!!

Happy Birthday Kak Mel

Wishing you all the best in life and enjoy all the opportunities that has yet to come..;p

And another belated birthday post to Miss Ida. Wished you had lots of fun there back in Brunei

Tour de France is here in Canterbury ;)

Perfect timing...its a Sunday...hot weather...and amazingly, it didnt rain at all..;)
Wish I had a better focused camera...but this will do.. ;p M loving some of the promotional cars being paraded while waiting for the cyclists to reach the finishing line in Canterbury.

A lot of people have big dreams and high aims..and there is nothing wrong to dream and have big goals in life...or even multiple dreamssss....atleast we set our own standards, have a purpose in life..and a reason to move on from one aim to another when things goes wrong.

Quoted from Amitanshu Vishal:

We all should have a dream,
And we should focus on it like a beam.
Dreams are dreamt to be achieved,
Whether to go on moon or to work in field.
We should bet,
That though not yet,
But we will achieve our goal
Which we set when we were small.

....New Beginning....

There's a new beginning for everything...a new beginning doesnt always start with a clear indication or promising us with something good.

Some pathways in life are very blurry and shaky..we are open to choices that we ourselves are unsure of...whether it will make a good beginning or it will be the start of a bad beginning..

But despite all that, we still have to make a choice and face the consequences...and that is how we learn to cope with things in life. Face our fears, take risks and have faith it will all work well. And let faith runs its course. It is the experiences in life that will make us mature, more aware of things and hopefully a better person.

When we fall, we shouldnt take it as permanent failure...but we should look at it as a challenge...an opening to a new beginning. Am i making sense?

All that I am trying to say is that...We dont know what will happen in the future.. no matter how calculative we are with risks and all that sort of things in life.

Some of us make very 'good' decisions...but in the end, it ends badly. Some of us plans the future clearly, but it ends bad.

Some of us make 'bad' decisiosns...but in the end, it works out well for them.

While there are others who make not 'bad' decisions, just 'unclear' decisions.. where the pathways after the decision is made remains blurry.., but we stick by it anyway..and sometimes something good will come out of it.

In the end, we never know what God have in store for us..so, we just have to have faith and besyukur with things that comes our way and hope for the best out of it.

So, Im just here to be thankful of all the good and bad things that had happened to me all this time. And may there be more good stuffs coming my way soon and in the future. AMin!!



p/s: 87 days before the submission of my dissertation. Goodluck to Ida, Nadiah and Kak Martinah...it will all be over soon. :)

Happy Birthday to my melating sister Sophia



Wishing you all the best and hope you'll pass your 'O' Levels brilliantly and start your college life in a few months time..;)

Lots of love xxx

Big congrats


TO Rina - For delivering a healthy baby boy...name unknown yet...;p.. Unfortunately, I dont have any pictures during our MD years in my laptop. But Congrats to you and Syed..email me pics soon :)

TO Rita - For delivering a healthy baby girl called Hazel...congrats to u and Lekan :)

I intend to blog about something that has been on my mind..but I decide not to.. simply because I'm lazy and theres just too many things to be said..all at once.

so, instead..Im gona paste one particular lagu brunei. I think this particualr song is lawa. THe music is relaxing..and the lyrics is nice. Tapi biasa lah, as most lagu brunei = lagu cinta...so obviously this will be a jiwang jiwang music..so, enjoy ;)

Back in Canterbury

Im back...I didnt realize how much I actually missed this place till I arrive arah the bus station...as I make my day home through the streets and lines of shops...it struck me that despite not enjoying the uni here, I will infact miss the friends I have made here, walking around town with no purpose, cuci mata, my 'starbucks' sessions...etc etc etc.

2 weeks in London..that must have been the longest ever time ive spend di london. Usually I'll get enough of London just after 4-5 days...but this time its been fun..and the libraries are lawa. Well, SOAS is very old..but with the amazing collection of books...i can just sit and enjoy my time there the whole day. Too bad, the library there tutup by 5pm..and I find the photocopier annoying..lol. And LSE was equally great as well...and the library's layout is lawa...modern and spacious!

Besides that, most of the people from Canterbury..esp the UBDians ngam ngam di bruhall as well...so it was nice to have familiar and friendly faces to look at...to have dinner with..And the late night bingeing n omong omong kosong...lol.

..sharing the same room with Idot..hehe..its been fun and she is nyanyah early in the morning..haha..something i have to get use to..;p..and ofkos she pun have to get use to my addiction to nyanyi nyanyi random songs and random national anthems..hahahaha...dont miss me too much..;p

And yay!!!...I know how to use the buses sudah..and which number to take to get around in london...well, not brilliant lah..just ok..atleast budget sikit compared to the underground and atleast i get to see 'dunia'..;p

Ok then people, I will write more soon. Basically, besides my research in the library..its been brilliant..and good food as well di bruhall..haha...soto, ayam kari, martabak, mee basah, spaghetti, u name it...nyaman...atleast kurang rindu makan masakan brunei..lol.

Till then, bye ;)

Last week has been a very pleasant and fun week..:) So, its getting back to do work this week..and im off to London to check out the libraries there to confirm my dissertation topic and to make sure that i have enough sources to back me up..will update when im back..;)

Saturday's bday bbq

Just for the sake of thinking aloud...

People always say that if you really want something really bad, it will come true eventually. We know, realistically,it is not that simple...we wont get the things we want just by wanting it really bad. Instead, it involves a whole lot of other factors to get us nearer to our goals. And there will be obstacles along every pathways that we choose...be it big or small.

And we were always told that if we really want something badly...we must set our mind to pursue it..be determined and willing to work our way towards it...it may take a month...a year or a couple of years before we can be at the place where we really want to be.

But, what happens if no matter what you do...you are still at the place where you first started?

What happens if no matter what you do..your goals are still far away?

And what happens if no matter what you do...instead of getting nearer to your goals, you are getting further away from it?

And, though people always cakap you need to besabar, be persistent and work your way from the bottom..but when will you know when to stop? when will you know that enough is enough?

Dissertation sickness!!

Now that exams are over..and most of the Bruneians are either back home or will be back in Brunei soon..its dissertation time for me and a few others...though the few others have the 'luxury' to do their research and finish up their typing back at our homeland..before heading back to the UK to submit it in a few mths time... *sniff*sniff*...i envy you guys..;p

Anyway, goodluck to us...who'll definitely be having nightmares...late nights readings and typing...endless editing...checking out the grammar...punctuations... endless meetings with the supervisor (hopefully, i'll start mine soon..) and endless mengusuting till its done. And without saying anything more abt my dissertation which will definitely bore you guys..wish me lots and lots of luck..;)

few more months to go before I am OUT of Canterbury...yay!!!!...;p

Few pics from the Artfestival last Saturday (ignore the wrong date on it..)





the Bruneians walking towards Tyler Hill






The long awaited fireworks...finally!!

Few pics of Street Party during the Bank Holiday last week












Followed by...lepak at home with the 'ParkWood Residence' before we're off to the cinema

I dont really have anything to say...but when its late and u cant sleep and programmes on the tv are boring then..what better can u do..:)..so i'll try not to write too long...;p

Anyway, I was bloghopping earlier on and came across a blog where one of the topics mentioned by the blogger was about people being 'afraid'. She mentioned that most people..are always afraid that if they choose A, manatau B would have a better offer and vice versa. We are afraid that if we make a choice now..then we might be missing something else or overlooked something that might be better for us out there. And some of us are constantly jealous of another person when she/he earns more..or offered with more opportunities to expand and explore her/his potentials etc.

I guess it is just human nature...not wanting to be miss out...being left behind.. always wants to do things perfectly and be the best they can possibly ever be..and some even go to a point of trying everything out..trying to take in more than what they can actually handle. But, are we at fault for wanting the best for ourself, our family and friends?

Maybe it is how most of us were brought up...where if we score 98% in our exam.. then some or maybe most parents will say..'eh, mana cukup tu..100% baru ya'..or they will say 'thats great...but there is still room for improvement'.. or another senario 'thats great..berapa kawan mu c bulan dapat?' and if we say that he/she scores higher...then the next line will be..eh,how come u cant score like her/him' or somewhere along that line. And I bet many of us are familiar with this situation. And it doesnt stops there... sometimes some of us come to a situation where we are competing with our dearest cousins...just because we are in the same year...doing the same course and all that. But of course, our parents are just doing that for our kebaikan.

Or if its not the way we are brought up, maybe it is just the feeling of being accepted, praised and given attention, feeling appreciated and all that...that makes us wants to be better by the minute. we are always looking for something that will make us better than the day before. So is it human nature to be highly
competitive, sometimes to the point of being selfish, sometimes to the point of hurting others to ensure that u get to the 'place' where u wana be.

Im not saying that its bad because I think it is good that we want to do the best and achieve more with our talents or capabilities..or selagi mampu as ppl always cakap...but I guess it is also important not to lose our perspectives...coz sometimes when we aim 'big'...we tend to forget n fail to appreciate all the little things in life that are also equally important.

When we achieve something small...it doesnt makes it less important. Instead, it is all these little achievements that may be a GATEWAY to bigger achievements...who knows right..;)

As my cousins have said to me...take baby steps along the way, in the end..you will be able to finish what u are doing or be where you wana be.

Anyway, I better stop now coz I think ive went off from the main issue I wanted to address earlier on..haha...have fun. Will write more soon.

p/s: To the kakaks...makan kan kueh teow di jingchew...Im ever sooo craving for it..;) Miss u all..bye

Selected songs that I enjoy



I made this MySpace Music Player at MyFlashFetish.com.

My weekend was quite interesting this week...went to London on thursday to settle few stuffs that needed to be sorted out with Brunei Hall. Then it was more of a relaxing week..doing things that are relaxing.

Friday
Spend the day with Idot checking out one of the libraries in London...it was lawa and trendy.

went cruising...ate di Bella Italia where the food was nyaman and we were kelaparan..lol..pics will be uploaded next time.

went around from Covent Garden...wanted to get this henna tattoo...but ada this scary and probably perverted guy..so cancelled the plan. lol. Then went to Picadilly Circus (i think)..and to Bond Street etc... And we were craving for ice cream..so we were hunting for the best deal...and the winner was Thortons...it was nyaman and large portion..haha.

Saturday
Spend half of my day in 'my' room..then half of the day jalan jalan cruising Selfridges. And then had late lunch with my friend, Ben arah this Syrian restaurant..the food was not bad. And since it was raining, we decide to watch dvd..'the Guardian'..it was a good movie. definitely a must see!

Sunday
Woke up late again..but the moment i heard the receptionist mentioned kari nanas and ayam rendang will be the menu for lunch..i hurried up and mandi and head downstairs..lol..nasib jua ampit the 2nd last ticket..haha...and the kari nanas was good. I miss eating proper food. lol.

Then spent my afternoon di Internet Cafe..lol..yea, I know..I should have done someting better with my time in London like jalan jalan..but I dont really know where to go. Im not a shopping freak..plus budget limited..so a day round the shops is sort of enough for me...;p

Apa lagi ah..hmm..oh...this time di London..I've been trying out the bus to get around London...its been fun..although i need more time to be really confident. Lol.

Ok then, thats all for now. Bye.

One litre of tears

Ive just finished watching a Japanese drama with the title above...its a MUST see drama. This drama is based on a true story about this young girl who has sooo many things to look forward to in life...and her life was just starting when she got sick with an incurable disease. Ive cried my eyes out throughout the whole 11 episodes..as the story makes u feel as if ure in the movie..and feeling what she is feeling..no wonder its called 'one litre of tears'..;p

She is such a strong girl...and was able to stay optimistic and fought her way to live on. The way her whole family face and cope with it is very touching...each of them supporting each other and still manage to look at the brighter side of things during the lowest point of their lives.

It makes me think that...we do take things for granted most of time and tend to be unappreciative with the things we have. We want to be taller, slimmer, richer and all that...when they are people who cant even walk or talk properly but are still happy and still besyukur..although the things that they can do are limited.

And us..we can talk, walk, run and achieve many things in life...but we often give out excuses to run away from doing things..thinking n believing that what we could have done today...we can still do it tomorrow.

And the things our family have done for us...how many of us have actually thanked them for worrying about our health, worrying about our revision during our exams with endless words of encouragement, whether we have eaten or not, whether we have enough pocket money..., waiting for us to be back home when we r out having fun with friends,..and the list just goes on and on.

And on top of that, they are always there during the times we need a shoulder to cry on when we r sad, a pat on the back for a job well done or hugs for encouragement..
gicing us honest opinions to improve ourselves etc etc etc, and yet...many of us seems to take their existence for granted.

well, im just rambling on here...need to sleep..its already late..im tired, got to go.

Frustration

I am very frustrated with the way things are going...I havent been able to stay focus on my work...all I need is just a few hours of solid concentration and I know my work will be done.

But..no, I am only able to concentrate for 10-15mins...with breaks or angan angan about i dont know what in between...etc etc..and Ive been sitting down on my ass the whole afternoon..and now its already 11.40pm...and my work is only ard a quarter done!!! Time is running out.......whats the matter with me???

Random updates

1) Went to Pizza Hut for Reza's bday

It was fun...good food n get to meet the Bruneians whom I havent seen for a long time due to exams and the holiday..;).. Anyway, Reza...hope u had fun and do enjoy ur bday present :)

2)Im frustrated with uni work

I've been working on this essay since monday kali..but I cant seem to focus on my work...god knows why...been reading and trying to type...but instead on progressing and adding on the number of words, i keep on editing and editing...so, in the end...i still have the same number of words...hmmm...but i do plan to continue it right after this..and give it another try...coz im running out of time..and i still have another one to do.

3)Im pms-ing

I've been craving for chocolates....brownies from tesco....digestive chocolates...n more chocolates...maybe this is why i have been indecisive abt doing my work... unable to focus and feeling as if i have a lot of things on my mind although i cant really pin point whats exactly bothering me...

4) The drama series im currently into...tho ive only watch a few episodes..;)..i love the music..



5) I'm currently deprived of horror movies..and I want to watch



and this...hopefully it is a good one



and this...



Ok then, thats all for now. Lets pray that I will stay awake to do my work now ;) Nyte guys

Something to put a smile on ur face :)

Pictures to share...:)

Dundee..Broughty Ferry..visiting baby

Kelty....visiting Chea chea and her family

Few hours tour round Edinburgh

Spending time in bolton :)
...went to Chester Zoo..

BBQ di belakang rumah...

Ok then, thats a few update on the easter...;)

Easter holiday has started...

I've been spending my time alone at home since last week..since Nadz sudah start cuti..(hope ure enjoying ur time there..:p)...and its been a hectic week last week as I had to finalize one of my essay... thank god its done although im not that satisfied with my conclusion..fingers cross it will turn out just fine ;)

Besides uni work, few updates since last week:
-Repaired my laptop as soon as Ive finish off my essay...baru jua ambil from the kadai tadi..so far its working well..though I couldnt install the wireless thingy..hmm...but now im online...yay!! rindu brabis saya just sitting ard at home browsing and wasting time online..haha
- Had dinner at Jirin's few nights ago sempena Maulud..was all impromptu..i arrived a lil late as I went to the library to research on a few stuffs...good food...c melo masak ayam..was delicious!!..followed by oranges, doughnuts, cakes,..had a good laugh as well...looking at durang jirin's iklan and pics during their secondary years...hehe..
- ada Next sales...but didnt buy any of it. It looks good..but not that good when I wear it..haha...depressing!! But in the end, bought a new jacket di Fernick...finally found one in red of the right size...hehe.
- had a luvly lunch di Olive Grove's with Wafi & Idot...it was to celebrate my bday and wafi's in advance...thanxs Dot...and got an advance bday present as well from both of them..hehe..its a nice green shoe ;p..thanxs again.
- apa lagi ah...cant remember..hmm...oh, had a catch lunch last week with Kak Martina and her friend before durang balik Brunei...was a good catch up.
- besides all that...it just more and more library time...ganya masa ani..since its cuti..inda boleh balik akhir...its super duperly quiet and sikit jelama...eeee...esp masa walking to the bus stop and waiting for the bus...and walking home as well...its way way sunyi-er than before...so no more late nights di uni...paling akhir mesti jua catch the 10.48pm bus...

Things to look forward to:
Im going off to Dundee tomorrow night...yay!! im taking a midnight bus and will be spending my time there till Sunday morning..,then im off to Bolton for the rest of the month..:)...it should be fun fun fun..:)

And besides having fun, more time to laze around dapan TV (which i do all the time..haha)...and online.....still have two essays to do over easter. the plan is to siapkan one over easter and another one once im back here... after that, its thesis time...then i can say goodbye to uni life...and Im gona miss it alot...esp the library and the journal and the books...hmm...wana have my own collection...;)

ok then, thats all...im just bibiran nonsense here with nothing specific to talk about... HAPPY EASTER every
one...and to those yang ada exam immediately after the cuti...good luck and do take a week off before u guys start ur revision.

Takecare

Till then...;)

i only have 5mins to blog now before i have to run to catch the bus...so it will be short and the rest will be continue next time if its necessary...so read on..what do u guys think?

I had a conversation with a friend recently. We were talking about how some people tend to be gila glamour at all times...they want to have the nicest and mahal-est car, the kewlest and biggest accesories, have the kewlest job, have a kewl title which people usually attach with being...'wah,dat position must demand alot out of u...or wah...basar gaji nya tu...or that is such an important position'...etc etc etc.

And some people might appear to be nice and sweet upfront..always ok with everything, tapi sebenarnya ia inda suka. So although he/she tends to agree with whatever you say and do dapan dapan...tapi actually he/she will mengumpat of how they dont actually agree with what u r doing.

And some people wont settle with anything less than what they expect although they know they cant afford it..so, some will indirectly put pressure on their partner's or parents just because they want to have that thing...whatever it is...

What do u guys think about this? DO you guys agree that people are becoming more like this?

k,got to go now.

Till then...muahz

Top 10 Stress Warning Signs

Was browsing through the news on MSN when I saw this...was surprised that I am experiencing 6 out of the 10 signs here. But, EASTER is coming soon...yay!! so its ok!! ;p Anyway, give yourself a check against this list....is your body telling you to stop and rest? ;p

BLINKING

Increased blinking = we are feeling the pressure, either emotionally or physically. When in a relaxed state, the average blink rate is around 15-30 times a minute but under stress this can increase to up to 70 times a minute. The response is known as the Nixon Effect after American president Richard Nixon, whose blinking escalated to suspicious levels when under pressure during the Watergate scandal.

TEETH GRINDING

Clenching or grinding teeth is a recognised response to anxiety, however, most ‘grinders’ are unaware they have this symptom as the condition usually flares-up when they are fast asleep. But it’s important to wake-up to signs such as chipped teeth, tooth sensitivity, sore jaw muscles and earache because prolonged exposure to grinding can result in headaches and jaw disorders.

DANDRUFF

Stress sets off a chain reaction in our physiology and as a result plays havoc with the immune system. On the outside, our hair and skin is one of the first places to show the strain - so it’s no wonder dandruff is the most common condition affecting the scalp. Research suggests weakened immunity triggers the bacteria which cause dandruff to grow out of control, swell and irritate the top of the head. As the cells die they break down to produce the pesky white flakes which cause a snow storm on our shoulders.

DRY MOUTH

When the going gets tough, our instinctive ‘fight or flight’ response kicks in. For basic survival purposes, blood flow is diverted away from less important areas and re-routed to essential muscles in case we need to scarper sharpish. This lack of fluid causes dryness of the mouth. Stress also interferes with our breathing - we take shorter, shallow breaths which leads to stinky breath. It can even make it harder to swallow because our throat muscles go into spasm as a side-effect of the strain on our system.

POOR SEX DRIVE

Stress can sabotage your libido in more ways than one. When you’re stressed to the max, the body’s reaction is to put survival ahead of pleasure. This affects the hypothalamus gland and the body’s production of estrogens and testosterone which give us sexual desire. Women may find it hard to achieve orgasm and men can experience temporary impotence as the chemicals released when stressed reduce blood flow to the penis.

IRRITATED SKIN

Emotional stress can cause chaos with our skin as pressure prompts the release of histamines into the bloodstream. Our skin then reacts against this enzyme which results in itchiness and hives. Skin conditions such as psoriasis and eczema are also thought to worsen when tense. Studies of psychological stress show anxiety can decrease the wound-healing capacity of the immune system by up to 40%, which doubles the effect of stress on acne.

SWEATS

Perspiration doesn’t only increase but is also smellier when we’re under emotional pressure. The sympathetic nervous system kicks into action when the body is stressed which forces our heart rate, blood pressure and breathing to rocket. Our apocrine glands (responsible for smelly sweat as opposed to odourless eccrine gland sweat) also work overtime and secrete more fatty fluid into the tubule of the gland. When we’re wound up, the tubule wall contracts and pushes sweat to the surface of the skin. It’s the bacteria waiting to break down the apocrine sweat which causes body odour.

TUMMY TROUBLE

One of the first places we run to when we come under increased pressure is the toilet. Stress tampers with our biochemistry and sends a surge of hormones including adrenaline racing through our body. Our digestive and immune system temporarily shut down because these stress hormones hinder the release of the stomach acid we need to break down food. However, get ready to say hello to diarrhoea as, simultaneously, the same hormones stimulate the colon so its contents are fast-tracked through the gut.

HUMMING

Did you know humming and whistling could be your body’s natural way of soothing a stressful situation? It might seem like an innocuous habit to subconsciously slip in to when you are stressed, but humming stimulates the right side of the brain (the part used for abstract and creative thoughts) and may help you to calm down. Humming is even one of the preferred stress-busters for babies who want to calm themselves.

BAD HABITS

Nail biting, nose picking, hair twisting are common habits if you’re nervous. It’s suggested that having something in our mouths reminds us of the calming, safe feeling of sucking milk as a baby. On the face of it, such anxious habits might look unpleasant to onlookers, but these manners may trigger calming sensors in the nervous system to give an immediate rush of relief.

:/

Its nearly the end of the term...everyone is looking forward to enjoy their easter break. However, this is also the time when people are pressured to siapkan their essays and presentations and reading lists etc etc etc.

I am currently doing an essay on risk assessment and disaster management. I could have finished it last week sudah because I have all the books needed for this essay and I have done my typing...i just need to re-arrange and re-organize the facts properly. I was in the mood to get it done like two weeks ago...and nearly did it all.

then i found out that my lecturer have different expectations in this particular topic (damn!! why did i choose this topic among all the other topics)..so last week was the last week for that particular module...and ive printed my work for me to revise bla bla bla...unfortunately or *fortunately*..i was the only one who came to the lecture (theres only 2 of us btw)...so we decided to discuss about my essay...then since ive printed my work, he wanted to read my introduction...and just browse through...he gave some flattering comments and less flattering ones as well...and since then, attempt to revise my work has failed.

Its a lil depressing that I dont have that 'drive' to finish it off and start with my other two essays (which due after easter altho i had plan earlier to finish atleast two before easter and leave one during easter). Ive been sitting on my ass kemarin trying to finish it off...but i think that is the hardest part....to properly reorganize the structure and conclude it. and i am way beyond my words limits.

I wonder cemana some people manage to stay on the 'high' all the time...ive lost my momentum, thats it!! ive pushed myself doing it but i ended up falling asleep...or i cant even focus to usai one paragraph. hmm. plus last wednesday, ive been told to cover this week's presentation...democracy and environment...ive done a bit of research and reading earlier on..and i will continue the rest tomorrow. i intend to usai my essay and add more relevant facts to it after this.

anyway, dont mind me...i think its just the fact that i still have a lot to do and i just dont know where to start with such limited time..and this is the place to let the steam out.

Just nonsense blabbing...

I spoke too soon abt spring, the sun and the heat....and now..snow is on its way...AGAIN!! Who needs snow in the middle of March...its making me lazy and it feels like xmas is around the corner..lol!! The world system is pretty messed up...is it global warming...climate change...or whatever the theories are out there....we dont really know for sure...as there are opposing debates about it. Anyway, it was sunny this morning, so thats good.

My week has been good as well...it started off slow...late nights..disrupted sleeping routine...skipping lectures. Then it progress slowly...trying to finish off essays...more readings...though it didnt stop me from watching TV as well :)...had a good catch up with Mr. Charlie Chaplin di starbucks for a couple of hours...was craving for ice blended mocha...wanted to buy this red jacket...its so gorgeous...but i guess now that 'winter' is coming back...its not worth it yet.

What else? Its a sunday and im in uni...realized that i have books due few days ago...and at the same time, i need more relevant books... coz baru tah sadar that i have not inserted any theories at all in the essay that im aiming to finish off the latest by tomorrow. hmm.

Anyway, i dont really have anything to say...so i better go off now. Takecare all and will update soon.

p/s: HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL :)

Last weekend, we had our International Nights at the University. It was fun as we get to dress up and look beautiful in our baju kurung or cara melayu or dresses. When I was told abt the upcoming international night, i was told that selalunya orang belawa lawa..tapi amazingly (or not!!) ramai came in with tops and jeans..very casual-ish...even the judges were casual. I love casual...but just thought if International Night, people would want to come in their traditional dresses etc etc...apparently not all feels that way. Lol!!

And rupanya International Night ani = competition night. Initially, I wasnt aware of that...but anyway, the performances by the BruneianMalaysian Society was lawa. It was properly coordinated and they all look beautiful...the zapin girls...so ayu dancing...and the Aduk Aduk boys and girls...so ganas ;p It was the most 'cultured' performance compared to others i think...but too bad we didnt win the competition. But they all did great...dats the most important thing...plus everyone enjoyed it . Congratz guys!! :)

Anyway, incase you guys are interested to watch the performances by the BruneianMalaysian society....click on the link..... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bzQFTE35W6w

Anyway, will post more pics once i get the pics from Idot & Wafi, Nadz, Jirin and the rest. Takecare ;p

Weather

Yay!! Finally Spring is here...hopefully the weather will be consistent from now onwards.

Although I kinda doubt it..coz the weather forecast were incorrect couple of times as their

predictions are not always right.

But lets enjoy the 5 days forecast in Canterbury where it is said that it will be as high as 13C throughout this week..and the lowest will be 3C. Lets hope it will not be that low.

Just to kill time...

Was browsing things online..and came across few interesting info on astrology...:) According to the internet astrology...

My karma sign is Virgo

Your obsession with perfectionism and order can leave you feeling frustrated and in a rut. You have an almost compulsive attention to detail which may have been learnt from a parent or authority figure. Often times you discourage yourself and others from trying new things simply because they won't be done the way you think they should be. Your karmic path is to always feel trapped within the lines and yet afraid to color outside of them. Fear is the basic motivation behind this desire for order -- it is the only way you know of controlling your environment. If you are capable of overcoming this fear -- letting go of control -- you have a chance of developing an imaginative side where your practicality could become a valuable asset.

There are many more things that you can calculate..like what is your sun sign, moon sign, love sign, passion sign, rebellious sign, etc etc etc. Its interesting.

Ok then, got to go now. Bye