...To be in a state of peace does not necessarily means you are in a state of harmony...
Monday, May 28, 2007
Friday
Spend the day with Idot checking out one of the libraries in London...it was lawa and trendy.
went cruising...ate di Bella Italia where the food was nyaman and we were kelaparan..lol..pics will be uploaded next time.
went around from Covent Garden...wanted to get this henna tattoo...but ada this scary and probably perverted guy..so cancelled the plan. lol. Then went to Picadilly Circus (i think)..and to Bond Street etc... And we were craving for ice cream..so we were hunting for the best deal...and the winner was Thortons...it was nyaman and large portion..haha.
Saturday
Spend half of my day in 'my' room..then half of the day jalan jalan cruising Selfridges. And then had late lunch with my friend, Ben arah this Syrian restaurant..the food was not bad. And since it was raining, we decide to watch dvd..'the Guardian'..it was a good movie. definitely a must see!
Sunday
Woke up late again..but the moment i heard the receptionist mentioned kari nanas and ayam rendang will be the menu for lunch..i hurried up and mandi and head downstairs..lol..nasib jua ampit the 2nd last ticket..haha...and the kari nanas was good. I miss eating proper food. lol.
Then spent my afternoon di Internet Cafe..lol..yea, I know..I should have done someting better with my time in London like jalan jalan..but I dont really know where to go. Im not a shopping freak..plus budget limited..so a day round the shops is sort of enough for me...;p
Apa lagi ah..hmm..oh...this time di London..I've been trying out the bus to get around London...its been fun..although i need more time to be really confident. Lol.
Ok then, thats all for now. Bye.
Monday, May 21, 2007
Ive just finished watching a Japanese drama with the title above...its a MUST see drama. This drama is based on a true story about this young girl who has sooo many things to look forward to in life...and her life was just starting when she got sick with an incurable disease. Ive cried my eyes out throughout the whole 11 episodes..as the story makes u feel as if ure in the movie..and feeling what she is feeling..no wonder its called 'one litre of tears'..;p
She is such a strong girl...and was able to stay optimistic and fought her way to live on. The way her whole family face and cope with it is very touching...each of them supporting each other and still manage to look at the brighter side of things during the lowest point of their lives.
It makes me think that...we do take things for granted most of time and tend to be unappreciative with the things we have. We want to be taller, slimmer, richer and all that...when they are people who cant even walk or talk properly but are still happy and still besyukur..although the things that they can do are limited.
And us..we can talk, walk, run and achieve many things in life...but we often give out excuses to run away from doing things..thinking n believing that what we could have done today...we can still do it tomorrow.
And the things our family have done for us...how many of us have actually thanked them for worrying about our health, worrying about our revision during our exams with endless words of encouragement, whether we have eaten or not, whether we have enough pocket money..., waiting for us to be back home when we r out having fun with friends,..and the list just goes on and on.
And on top of that, they are always there during the times we need a shoulder to cry on when we r sad, a pat on the back for a job well done or hugs for encouragement..
gicing us honest opinions to improve ourselves etc etc etc, and yet...many of us seems to take their existence for granted.
well, im just rambling on here...need to sleep..its already late..im tired, got to go.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
I am very frustrated with the way things are going...I havent been able to stay focus on my work...all I need is just a few hours of solid concentration and I know my work will be done.
But..no, I am only able to concentrate for 10-15mins...with breaks or angan angan about i dont know what in between...etc etc..and Ive been sitting down on my ass the whole afternoon..and now its already 11.40pm...and my work is only ard a quarter done!!! Time is running out.......whats the matter with me???
Saturday, May 05, 2007
1) Went to Pizza Hut for Reza's bday
It was fun...good food n get to meet the Bruneians whom I havent seen for a long time due to exams and the holiday..;).. Anyway, Reza...hope u had fun and do enjoy ur bday present :)
2)Im frustrated with uni work
I've been working on this essay since monday kali..but I cant seem to focus on my work...god knows why...been reading and trying to type...but instead on progressing and adding on the number of words, i keep on editing and editing...so, in the end...i still have the same number of words...hmmm...but i do plan to continue it right after this..and give it another try...coz im running out of time..and i still have another one to do.
3)Im pms-ing
I've been craving for chocolates....brownies from tesco....digestive chocolates...n more chocolates...maybe this is why i have been indecisive abt doing my work... unable to focus and feeling as if i have a lot of things on my mind although i cant really pin point whats exactly bothering me...
4) The drama series im currently into...tho ive only watch a few episodes..;)..i love the music..
5) I'm currently deprived of horror movies..and I want to watch
and this...hopefully it is a good one
and this...
Ok then, thats all for now. Lets pray that I will stay awake to do my work now ;) Nyte guys
Thursday, May 03, 2007
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
I've been spending my time alone at home since last week..since Nadz sudah start cuti..(hope ure enjoying ur time there..:p)...and its been a hectic week last week as I had to finalize one of my essay... thank god its done although im not that satisfied with my conclusion..fingers cross it will turn out just fine ;)
Besides uni work, few updates since last week:
-Repaired my laptop as soon as Ive finish off my essay...baru jua ambil from the kadai tadi..so far its working well..though I couldnt install the wireless thingy..hmm...but now im online...yay!! rindu brabis saya just sitting ard at home browsing and wasting time online..haha
- Had dinner at Jirin's few nights ago sempena Maulud..was all impromptu..i arrived a lil late as I went to the library to research on a few stuffs...good food...c melo masak ayam..was delicious!!..followed by oranges, doughnuts, cakes,..had a good laugh as well...looking at durang jirin's iklan and pics during their secondary years...hehe..
- ada Next sales...but didnt buy any of it. It looks good..but not that good when I wear it..haha...depressing!! But in the end, bought a new jacket di Fernick...finally found one in red of the right size...hehe.
- had a luvly lunch di Olive Grove's with Wafi & Idot...it was to celebrate my bday and wafi's in advance...thanxs Dot...and got an advance bday present as well from both of them..hehe..its a nice green shoe ;p..thanxs again.
- apa lagi ah...cant remember..hmm...oh, had a catch lunch last week with Kak Martina and her friend before durang balik Brunei...was a good catch up.
- besides all that...it just more and more library time...ganya masa ani..since its cuti..inda boleh balik akhir...its super duperly quiet and sikit jelama...eeee...esp masa walking to the bus stop and waiting for the bus...and walking home as well...its way way sunyi-er than before...so no more late nights di uni...paling akhir mesti jua catch the 10.48pm bus...
Things to look forward to:
Im going off to Dundee tomorrow night...yay!! im taking a midnight bus and will be spending my time there till Sunday morning..,then im off to Bolton for the rest of the month..:)...it should be fun fun fun..:)
And besides having fun, more time to laze around dapan TV (which i do all the time..haha)...and online.....still have two essays to do over easter. the plan is to siapkan one over easter and another one once im back here... after that, its thesis time...then i can say goodbye to uni life...and Im gona miss it alot...esp the library and the journal and the books...hmm...wana have my own collection...;)
ok then, thats all...im just bibiran nonsense here with nothing specific to talk about... HAPPY EASTER every
one...and to those yang ada exam immediately after the cuti...good luck and do take a week off before u guys start ur revision.
Takecare
Till then...;)
Saturday, March 31, 2007
I had a conversation with a friend recently. We were talking about how some people tend to be gila glamour at all times...they want to have the nicest and mahal-est car, the kewlest and biggest accesories, have the kewlest job, have a kewl title which people usually attach with being...'wah,dat position must demand alot out of u...or wah...basar gaji nya tu...or that is such an important position'...etc etc etc.
And some people might appear to be nice and sweet upfront..always ok with everything, tapi sebenarnya ia inda suka. So although he/she tends to agree with whatever you say and do dapan dapan...tapi actually he/she will mengumpat of how they dont actually agree with what u r doing.
And some people wont settle with anything less than what they expect although they know they cant afford it..so, some will indirectly put pressure on their partner's or parents just because they want to have that thing...whatever it is...
What do u guys think about this? DO you guys agree that people are becoming more like this?
k,got to go now.
Till then...muahz
Thursday, March 29, 2007
BLINKING
DRY MOUTH
POOR SEX DRIVE
Monday, March 26, 2007
Its nearly the end of the term...everyone is looking forward to enjoy their easter break. However, this is also the time when people are pressured to siapkan their essays and presentations and reading lists etc etc etc.
I am currently doing an essay on risk assessment and disaster management. I could have finished it last week sudah because I have all the books needed for this essay and I have done my typing...i just need to re-arrange and re-organize the facts properly. I was in the mood to get it done like two weeks ago...and nearly did it all.
then i found out that my lecturer have different expectations in this particular topic (damn!! why did i choose this topic among all the other topics)..so last week was the last week for that particular module...and ive printed my work for me to revise bla bla bla...unfortunately or *fortunately*..i was the only one who came to the lecture (theres only 2 of us btw)...so we decided to discuss about my essay...then since ive printed my work, he wanted to read my introduction...and just browse through...he gave some flattering comments and less flattering ones as well...and since then, attempt to revise my work has failed.
Its a lil depressing that I dont have that 'drive' to finish it off and start with my other two essays (which due after easter altho i had plan earlier to finish atleast two before easter and leave one during easter). Ive been sitting on my ass kemarin trying to finish it off...but i think that is the hardest part....to properly reorganize the structure and conclude it. and i am way beyond my words limits.
I wonder cemana some people manage to stay on the 'high' all the time...ive lost my momentum, thats it!! ive pushed myself doing it but i ended up falling asleep...or i cant even focus to usai one paragraph. hmm. plus last wednesday, ive been told to cover this week's presentation...democracy and environment...ive done a bit of research and reading earlier on..and i will continue the rest tomorrow. i intend to usai my essay and add more relevant facts to it after this.
anyway, dont mind me...i think its just the fact that i still have a lot to do and i just dont know where to start with such limited time..and this is the place to let the steam out.
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Monday, March 12, 2007
Friday, March 09, 2007
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
In my case, my life is alhamdulillah doing well so far...Ive let go of things that I should let go...my uni life is not bad...my readings are going well as well although its a lil slow to my liking...and im starting my essays due end of this month...I only have another 5 days of hutang puasa to pay...etc etc etc.
Anyway, the reason why Im posting this post is because it is true when people say ur life cant go smooth all way through....you are bound to have few minor hiccups or major ones. And how when I was younger, my late grandpa used to remind me everytime I visited him during school holidays that life will not always be the way we wanted it to be...we have to constantly work towards a better life etc etc etc.
Last night, when I was just thinking that I am happy with myself because this term Ive been reading things that I should be reading for lectures and understanding it... and while I was typing my work, my laptop was making funny noises...tapi baru jua 2 jam I was reading and typing away in an attempt to finish atleast 3/4 of it so that I can start with another one by end of this week. So I thought maybe the sound will go away in a bit...and I thought to myself...maybe I should switch it off and let it rest...and decided I will do that if the noise persist in another 10mins...
Sekalinya without giving me a chance to save my work or without prior warning, it just switched off in just few mins to 10 mins. hmm. How frustrating can that be? My laptop has failed me quite a few times within the past 6 mths...and it struck me..this is only another test...cubaan (Lol)..when i think about it, its funny how in our minds...we are constantly talking to ourselves...just like how JD talks to himself in SCRUBS...haha..
Anyway, it struck me that I am being tested.I see this as one of my minor test...last term I was being tested at a time when I really need my laptop to meet my deadlines. It failed me by refusing to switched on...and bcoz I dont have a proper CD recovery for my laptop...it was 'disable' before xmas holidays....throughout xmas and till end of january.
It was only functioning late january and Ive only properly used it to listen to music, type my work, review stuffs ive saved from the internet di uni for the entire of february...and now when im doing my essays, it failed me again. SO i decided to sleep and wait for tomorrow.
Luckily this morning, when I checked it...it was fine...it switched on instantly when i press the start button bla bla...but then, how much of this can I take especially when Im gona start typing my dissertation after easter...hmm...should I invest in a new laptop? Im tempted...dad told me to buy apple saja coz ada the agent back in Brunei...but how about dell? do we have the agent in Brunei?
Anyway, im trying to get dad or a friend to send me the proper CD recovery for my laptop...and i will try to properly reformat it and etc etc...and see how it goes..
SO, right now, it calls for laptop hunting...:)...I will be viewing potential laptops online lah dulu...which will be difficult coz kak meng is the one who knows and help us understand all these 'computer-ish' functions in the IT language..im pretty useless trying to understand all these IT language...hehe..
Anyway, to kak meng if ure reading this....recommendations are welcome...and kak mel, do u find apple easy to function?
Ok then, thats it for today :)
Monday, March 05, 2007
Idiotic 'Millionaire' Contestant Makes Worst Use Of Lifelines Ever

Kathy Evans, the single dumbest contestant to ever get on "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire?"
NEW YORK - Idaho resident Kathy Evans brought humiliation to her friends and family Tuesday when she set a new standard for stupidity with her appearance on the popular TV show, "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire."
It seems that Evans, a 32-year-old wife and mother of two, got stuck on the first question, and proceeded to make what fans of the show are dubbing "the absolute worst use of lifelines ever."
After being introduced to the show's host Meredith Vieira, Evans assured her that she was ready to play, whereupon she was posed with an extremely easy $100 question. The question was:
"Which of the following is the largest?"
A) A Peanut
B) An Elephant
C) The Moon
D) Hey, who you calling large?
I hope you guys do know the answer to this...;)..
Immediately Mrs. Evans was struck with an all consuming panic as she realized that this was a question to which she did not readily know the answer.
"Hmm, oh boy, that's a toughie," said Evans, as Vieira did her level best to hide her disbelief and disgust. "I mean, I'm sure I've heard of some of these things before, but I have no idea how large they would be."
Evans made the decision to use the first of her three lifelines, the 50/50. Answers A and D were removed, leaving her to decide which was bigger, an elephant or the moon. However, faced with an incredibly easy question, Evans still remained unsure.
"Oh! It removed the two I was leaning towards!" exclaimed Evans. "Darn. I think I better phone a friend." Using the second of her two lifelines on the first question, Mrs. Evans asked to be connected with her friend Betsy, who is an office assistant.
"Hi Betsy! How are you? This is Kathy! I'm on TV!" said Evans, wasting the first seven seconds of her call. "Ok, I got an important question. Which of the following is the largest? B, an elephant, or C, the moon. 15 seconds hun."
Betsy quickly replied that the answer was C, the moon. Evans proceeded to argue with her friend for the remaining ten seconds.
"Come on Betsy, are you sure?" said Evans. "How sure are you? Puh, that can't be it."
To everyone's astonishment, the moronic Evans declined to take her friend's advice and pick 'The Moon.'
"I just don't know if I can trust Betsy. She's not all that bright. So I think I'd like to ask the audience," said Evans.
Asked to vote on the correct answer, the audience returned 98% in favor of answer C, 'The Moon.' Having used up all her lifelines, Evans then made the dumbest choice of her life.
"Wow, seems like everybody is against what I'm thinking," said the too-stupid-to-live Evans.
"But you know, sometimes you just got to go with your gut. So, let's see. For which is larger, an elephant or the moon, I'm going to have to go with B, an elephant. Final answer."
Evans sat before the dumbfounded audience, the only one waiting with bated breath, and was told that she was wrong, and that the answer was in fact, C, 'The Moon.'
Friday, March 02, 2007
Here it goes...6 weird things about me :)
1)Ive been forever in love with tomatoes..dalam masakan, or juice, or just eat it as it is..or tomato ketchup. Friends find it peculiar that I enjoy eating bread with ketchup..;)...wait till they see me eat rice with ketchup and kicap...yummy!!
2)I dont really make daily plans, especially with others..as it doesnt really happen the way its planned. People cancel last minute..because it clash with sth else or because they dont feel like it, they change their minds or they totally lupa. Unless its emergency cases, then I dont like people cancelling their plans last minute, especially when I look forward to that day. So I dont make plans anymore...unless its important and needs thorough planning.
3) I have a 'mental block system' or i prefer calling it a 'shutdown' system. When im irritated/annoyed/not pleased/unhappy/ not agreeing with what they say or when i do not want to hear someones voice..whatever they say will just go through me. Their voice will be on 'mute' although they may be sitting next to me talking to me. Its like im in my own world n i can select what i want to hear etc. And that is how i can stand being patient all this time with whoever Im not so fond off. And this system is also good for 'suppressing' unhappy thoughts and memories..as I dont really like people knowing what exactly goes inside my 'brain'..or when im unhappy ;)
4)I'm slow...if im out with family or friends, i will probably be the last to finish my food(although im always the first to finish my drink ;p), be the last person to make a decision(unless im so into it). If people rush me into decisions etc, then i will most probably ended up with no decisions at all..;p
5)I let people get away with minor things. Example, if a friend of mine becerita abt something...and the story line is a lil bit different from the actual story or the story that he/she told me, I will usually let it be. Not because Im ignorant or cant be bothered, but bcoz its more or less the same story. tapi liat occasion lah, sometimes i will correct them when i feel its necessary.
But often, I let it be when people contradict themselves, I let it be when i found out a friend stole my money dulu..although i dropped hints about it, I let it be when i learned/heard that some friends had bad talked about me..unless its a big issue. I let it be when my feelings are hurt by something that someone might have said etc etc...I dont know why I do this..but I do.
6) Apa lagi ah?? hehe..let me think...i dont think its weird...but im out of points to say...but I still enjoy watching cartoons!!
Ok then, thats it...my post for the day..or week ;)