CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!!!!

I am at the moment stuck and stranded inside my office.

WHY?

Apparently the main automatic door has been locked. And the supposedly security who should be guarding outside is nowhere to be seen.

Now...I have to wait for my colleague who will return to the office to collect his laptop and all. So what more enjoying that going online. lol.

I find this in a way funny...though I cant explain why. But I do hope I will be out of this building before maghrib...which is just in a few minutes. Hmm. Another unfortunate event!!

Anyway, we have finally move to our permanent seat..and my table looks 'naked'. I want to add a few character to it so that it wont be dull.

Let me list some of the things I will need:

- small shelf...the height of my divider...which will mean dua tingkat saja.
- a proper place to put my pen next to my desktop...I saw one di Serusop. It a figure of a cat putting its arm together. Lawa!! And cheap. lol.
- proper divider for my books and papers
- ?

What I want:
This is the interesting bit...hehe..not that I want much...a few saja.

- a tall plant...im thinking around 16inch...should be more or less the height of my divider to be place at the corner of my L shaped table. And im thinking maybe those small miniature bamboo would be nice.
- another plant...with colour...to be place next to my desktop.
- something that I can stick on my divider.. mayb family picture. or maybe I would like to keep my life private..;p

Thats all I can think of right now. I just want it to be simple and nice.

Since my colleague is not here yet......let me think of what to write. Hmm.
Here are some random things in my head.

A foreign doctor working in Brunei asked me why I never opted to take medicine. Seriously, I dont know why. Maybe it never occured to me. I dont even remember.

What I do remember...I wanted to be a forensic...then Im stuck with the idea of being an archaeologists. And now, I am completely doing a different thing. Its funny how our life always turn out to be different from our plans.

Anyway, my colleague is here now.

Got to go...dont want to be a prisoner for long...;p

xxx

Rain rain go away.....

I made my way to the stadium...wore my socks and tied my shoes. Just after 5 mins of briskwalking, the wind was blowing hard and the clouds turns dark. Was soaking wet by the time I arrive back to my car. It rained on the day I decided to jog. How unfortunate!!

Few updates

Been doing a lot of catching up session with *L*, a dearest friend of mine this week. Going to miss him a lot when he goes back to work to the other side of the world end of next week.

Work - its been 3 weeks. It will be the 4th week the coming Monday. Deadlines lining up but its been fine despite the pressure to catch up with time. Will probably move office as well next week ;)

Today - My first weekend where I had to go to work half day to get something done.

Then I had nasi ayam mango for lunch. Give it a try ppl at Happy Dean. Nyaman rupanya. Never heard of nasi ayam mango before until today. lol.

After lunch, went for a quick drink with L and discussed a number of issues around us. Learning more about him.

Then, I watched RUGBY live for the first time with Nadz. OMG! Some of them just ran into each other like nothing...so the smaller ones lah yang kesian. I called the opposing teams the 'bees and the ants'...haha..They actually terpelanting you know...like when we buang our bag on the couch. lol. I would love to see more of live RUGBY. Its a very different atmosphere when compared us sitting down infront of the TV. lol.

And now Im at home. Decided that my body needs rest though I have more plans up my sleeves. So im taking a few days break with more rest for my system. lol.

OK, thats it for now.

xxx

Someone made me smile

A friend commented on my blog few hours ago while we were chatting..and it made me smile.

I've known her since my first year uni and I have to say that I never really know what my friends really think of me...after all these years. Most would say I'm nice, though I think I can be the complete opposite ;)

Anyway, she said...something along this line...

Btw, i like ur posts in ur blog sal the girls thingy. and the rest was cali..like apakan...i can imagine u writing them do n u know the look on ur face.

hm u may look sweet and innocent from the outside, mcm the type yang doesnt speak much mcm awu2 saja, biasa kan ayu..tapi once u open ur mouth..its like semua orang lari coz it fieryyy.. and powerful.



...the end...


Well, you know who you are..and thanks so much for the comments. Hehe. And yes, I take it as a compliment ;)

So...I'm wondering, do I get to hear anymore comments from the rest? ;p

xxx

Trust your instincts!!

I was contemplating whether to use the Telanai road or just passed the Istana earlier today. Then I decided to passed the Istana as it is a more straight journey to go to Batu Besurat.

When I stopped at the traffic light at the Telanai junction, it randomly hit me that maybe there will be a road block today so I shouldn't drive fast. So I slowed down by a few double digits km/hr. But after passing few houses along Damuan, i just put off my feelings aside. And it was at that very moment that I saw two policeman sitting down on the grass with this black thing to catch the speed.

I quickly hit my brake and swear to myself after I realized they caught me. They looked and smiled when they understood my expression as I put my palms over my mouth or face. lol.

And of course a policeman stopped me a few minutes later and told me to go to the side.

Fortunately, I knew the guy who stopped me...and a few seconds later he realized that he knew me as well (thank god!!!)

He asked me why am I speeding. I was driving as fast as 85. And me..not knowing what to say...told him the truth...


'I am speeding coz I am late'

..and I've hit on my brakes so it was supposed to be 65..


He said ..we caught u 200m before u break.


I couldn't help laughing inside..thinking how stupid it was to tell them the truth.


Anyway, I promised him not to drive as fast along that road anymore.



Moral of the story:

Trust your instincts.

This is not the first time that I've pushed my instinct to the side where it bites me back..

xxx

Interesting read...


THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GROWN WOMAN AND A GIRL


Girls leave their schedule wide-open and wait for a guy to call and make plans.
Grown women make their own plans and nicely tell the guy to get in where he fits.


Girls want to control the man in their life.
Grown women know that if he's truly hers, he doesn't need controlling.


Girls check you for not calling them.
Grown women are too busy to realize you hadn't.


Girls are afraid to be alone.
Grown women revel in it-using it as a time for personal growth.


Girls ignore the good guys.
Grown women ignore the bad guys.


Girls make you come home.
Grown women make you want to come home.


Girls worry about not being pretty and/or good enough for their man.
Grown women know that they are pretty and/or good enough for any man.


Girls try to monopolize all their man's time ( i.e., don't want him hanging with his friends).
Grown women realize that a lil' bit of space makes the 'together time' even more special-and goes to kick it with her own friends.


Girls think a guy crying is weak.
Grown women offer their shoulder and a tissue.


Girls want to be spoiled and 'tell' their man so.
Grown women 'show' him and make him comfortable enough to reciprocate without fear of losing his 'manhood'.


Girls get hurt by one man and make all men pay for it.
Grown women know that that was just one man.


Girls fall in love and chase aimlessly after the object of their affection, ignoring all 'signs'.
Grown women know that sometimes the one you love, don't always love you back-and move on, without bitterness.


Girls will read this and get an attitude.
Grown women will read this and pass it on to other Grown women and their male friends. Do not go where the path may lead, go instead, where there is no path and leave a trail."

What do you guys think?

xxx

Yellow rose

I was browsing through random blogs when I came across this entry. I think it is an interesting entry made by 'Wearing Sunscreen'.

Hope you will enjoy it as much as I did.



The meaning of silence

Seller used to say to me that he never wore a watch because it nagged at him and reminded him that he was late. From this he deduced that all watches were female. This, amongst his many other idiosyncrasies, used to make me laugh.

Women nag. Apparently. Thing is we don't see it that way. To us it's discussing a problem. To us it's opening that discussion. Admittedly, not in the most conducive of ways, but really, generally when you've GOT to talk about something, it really bothers you so you're probably not going to be thinking how conducive your opening words are. It's unacceptable to pretend it never happened and hope it goes away. Women by nature are not Ostriches.

And men complain about this. However if we never nagged then nothing would ever get resolved. Men grumble about it like it's the worst thing in the world.
But it's not.

It's when she's silent that there is a problem. Because when a woman is silent it's because she just doesn't care anymore.

Contrary to what we were taught in primary school, the opposite of love is not hate. The opposite of love is indifference.

For as long as it matters to her to talk it out. For as long as she is trying to understand and to make you understand. For as long as she brings the matter up. That is how long YOU matter. For that period of time your thoughts, actions and feelings matter to her. They have a bearing on how she thinks and feels. They count.

But when she is silent, she has given up on you. When she is silent, it just doesn't matter anymore. When she is silent she has no more expectations of you.

When she is silent, YOU do not matter. She is indifferent.

So yes, the opposite of love is indifference.

Pictures worth sharing





Took by a friend of mine when he went on a 'dolphin sighting' trip.

xxx

Check this out….

Brunei - seen as one of the countries in SEA with high living standards, high literacy rates, low poverty rates and perhaps one of the most stable countries in the region. However, although the country is doing well, we can’t say the same about its society.

We are still expected to live our daily lives conforming to what is accepted…and staying away for the unacceptable and unimaginable (which is of course fine by me). I personally think our culture is beautiful and unique. But my problem is the fact that most people still feel and act like they ‘own’ others.

Society = intellectual, cultural, most with high purchasing power, sympathetic, religious, some are helpful etc etc etc...but unfortunately, some think too highly off themselves, selfish, N.A.T.O, vengeful, materialistic, ego, restrictive, etc etc.

Ok, I think I'm diverting away from my main point. lol.

Anyway, the point is....we are told to grow up, be independent and make your own choice. But still our lives are dictated and suppressed by insignificant others who thinks they are always right and never make mistakes…and who thinks our choice are always the unwise one.

I think we are free to make our own choice. No one can ever be sure on what is right and what is wrong. And no one can be sure whether what happens to A will happens to B. and what happens on Monday will happens on Tuesday. No one knows how tomorrow will unfold itself.

And though the choices we make might eventually be a mistake, then it is a risk we take and it is our own mistakes and not mistakes as a result of decisions made by others. We only have ourselves to blame if whatever path way we choose in life turns out to be a mistake. and the same applies if we let others dictate over us.

How can some people think very highly of themselves?
What makes them think they know what will happen in the future?
How can they be bigger than God? What makes them think that people can never change? One can never be so sure of what will happen in the future.
And what makes them so vengeful and unforgiving?
What makes them be so unforgiving when it comes to others but ‘weak’ when it comes to things that happens to her/him?

I don't think I'm making any sense here..so I will stop now. It is just something to ponder upon…

xxx

This post was supposed to be publish like a mth ish ago... lol. totally forgotten about it.

'ideal body'

'You are fat'!!
'Your arms are flabby'!!
'You need to flatten your tummy'!!
'Your thighs are too big'!!
'You are big'!!
'You need to start losing weight'!!
'You need to start eating healthy'!!
'You look like that fat woman next door'!!
'Who is that fat girl / woman?'...bla bla bla...

How often do you hear people saying these things to you? How many of you are able to identify with these?? I bet a lot of you are able to. May it be from some simple remarks such as 'Have you gained weight?'...sarcastic ones...'U look healthy'...and to extremes ones.... many of us definitely experienced this situations once or uncountable times.

The idea of what is an ideal shape varies from culture to culture and each to its own taste. Some prefer skinny, petite ones while others prefer fleshy ones with bits and pieces to grab on.

Women are constantly pressurized to look good. From head to toe, from big to lil accessories, from left to right etc etc etc. And women often starves themselves, take diet pills, exercise excessively...in order to lose weight to meet her supposedly 'ideal weight'...or losing more weight till they are underweight..or till they see themselves as 'beautiful' in the mirror.

Family, peers and society...stigmatized obese woman. I mean what is the big deal? Big women...it doesnt mean they are not eating healthy foods...and for the skinny ones, it doesnt mean they are healthy.

Stop criticizing and lower ones' self esteem by making such remarks...like constantly. An individual knows when she/he is fat and unfit and needs to lose weight. Stop trying to focus on others weak points and stress them about it.

If you can't say it nicely, then don't say it at all. Whats the point anyway?

There are more things to talk about and look forward to. Infact there are more things to life....than being one of those people who constantly tries to achieve an 'ideal' shape.

It makes you less interesting when that is all you talk about.

Take a chill pill.

xxx

Pics taken when we went to Miri a few weeks ago...






Not ready to pose...



Still not ready...



All set for a nice pose...



a very happy boy....found what he was looking for... 'coloured dinosaur eggs'..lol




lots of nice stuffs that I wish to buy...when the time comes..;p


xxx

Opps!!

I just realized that I have accidentally published an entry thats not suppose to be posted just yet simply because I'm not done with it...lol...so I've deleted it of course..;p

Will write more next time.

xxx

And yes, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY to everyone who celebrates the V-Day.

xxx

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Initially, I signed in with lots of ideas to write and talk about. But now that I've signed in...nothing is flowing out of my mind. lol.

All I can say is...I am feeling better compared to my previous post. I've been spending my days reflecting and trying to understand why individuals behave and act the way they do.

Why do some people say things without thinking of the consequences of their words and actions beforehand?

Why do some people act so kind in front of others but....?

Is it fame, wealth that they are after; OR being seen as brave, cool and confident that they want OR are they just extremely deprived of attention that they can't seem to leave anyone in peace and just mind their own business??

It is a wonder.

Whatever it is, I will not let it bother me. If being B-chy and pretentious will get them to where they want to be, so be it. Whatever makes them happy.

I just have to make sure that I know what I want, prioritized my needs and work on to achieve it. Whatever makes me happy.



This post is not reflecting on anyone in specific...just thinking out loud randomly.

Goodnight and have a good weekend.

TOO MUCH DRAMA

Anyone who really understands me know that I TRUTHFULLY HATE DRAMAS!!!! lebih lebih lagi drama queens.

So much had happened in the past few weeks. Initially it was excited and interesting. And after the outcome of the 'event'; and when the drama starts to appear, things get kind of less-exciting from my point of view.

I am no longer interested in 'it' as I was initially..no matter how much effort I put in and knowing that I would have enjoyed it.

I am now tired of hearing so many different versions of the same thing from random unreliable 'THIRD PARTIES' and whatever it is that may pleased that person; topped with cheeries, whipped cream and a dash of hershey's chocolate to add extra buzz to the 'drama script'.

May all of you who have contributed to the drama scripts one way or another be SUCCESSFUL directors!!

Go continue your script!!!!

Out of boredom...

Was browsing the net and came across an interesting website...so decided to take a commitment test.

My score: 50.

What does your score mean?

According to this quiz, you are rather hesitant to take the plunge. Though you might be very much in love with your partner, there are some things keeping you from giving it your all. Maybe your relationship is a "late bloomer" and things will advance when the time is right. Maybe you just aren't ready yet. Or maybe you have some nagging doubts in the back of your mind that might be worth exploring. The most important thing to remember is to keep the lines of communication open-it is important that the two of you are on the same commitment wavelength.

WHAT I THINK OF THE ASSESSMENT??

Based on what I've experienced, this is quite true. I am not yet willing to take anything on to a serious level no matter how in love I might be. I have my reasons..and intent to keep it to myself ;)

If I have taken this quiz back in..hmm..let me think..back in 2004/2005, I think my assessment result would be way different. I think back then I will have a higher commitment level compared to now ;) However, I guess my priorities and the way I look at things have changed tremendously over the years.

Nywy, if you are interested to take this test or any other tests...just click on this website... http://health.discovery.com/tools/assessments.html ...I don't know how to link it here the easy way...;p

Its quite interesting although some of the questions asked are not 'culturally and religiously acceptable'..but it is only a quiz..just give it a go ;)

Little things in life that makes me happy..not in order..:)

1) friendly faces

2) spending time with family n friends

3) the smell of freshly cut grass

4) smell of coffee

5) beach

6) sunrise n sunset

7) music

8) the feeling of being appreciated

9) respect

10) the feeling of being in love

11) getting random hugs from family and friends..selected ones of course...;p

12) a clean space

13) chocolate muffins

14) 'me' time...once in a while

15) being loved

16) a good laugh

......to be continued....maybe ;)

Hair quickie

A quick trip to u-know-who for a brilliant hair fix..:-P

2007 was definitely a 'tough' year for me personally for so many reasons which I do not wish to discuss here. However, despite all that, I am optimistic that good things will come out of it eventually, if not now :)

So, what do I plan to achieve in 2008?

1) Get a job.

A stable part time job in the next few months is, and hopefully a 'fun' and stable permanent job before the middle of the year. Amin!!

2) Improve myself.

Focus on some sort of personal development... work on a few areas that I think needs some major and minor polishing...;p

3) Start a saving account.

4) Do some stuffs that I truly enjoy..or things that I dream of doing but never got the chance to do so.


Wish me luck..;)