As an individual, I truly believe that everything happens for a reason. This realization and acceptance however, does not really make it any easier (on the heart) to accept certain things when it actually happened.

Growing up, you have dreams and plans. Those sweet happy endings movies always make you believe that you will achieve your dreams no matter what. Unfortunately, it is not the case in real life. Sometimes it works out and other times it doesn’t. Sometimes something great will happen and immediately you will see the ‘reason’ for the failure of your other dreams, and at other times you will be tested by a series of unfortunate events before you can actually see the ‘reason’. Whatever it is we are facing, it is a great blessing if we do remember Allah; but what if we don’t? Nauzubillah.

I have been feeling uneasy for at least a week now. And this is accompanied by the difficulty to sleep…seriously it was annoying. And now I think I know why. It might not be it...but for now, I think it is.

Alhamdulillah Allah works in mysterious ways and it is up to us to really read on the little signs he is giving us in order to prepare us for something bigger. And for that, I thanked Allah for giving me the little signs that makes me much more prepared…not only on one occasion, but on numerous occasions within these few years. I may not always ‘fit’ the puzzle right away…but when it happened, the ‘puzzle’ looks picture clear.

…hopefully I will be able to sleep well tonight. Amin!!!