Friday, October 24, 2008

Something missing...

I am 28 years old. Im blessed with a big extended family..aunties, uncles and cousins whom some I dont even know their real names. Friends from all sorts of background and a number of good trustable friends. I have a good education and a job with a reasonable pay, and I am seeing someone.

So why is it do I feel like there's still something if theres a missing 'brick' in the whole wide puzzle? Why is it I still feel lonely?

Don't get me wrong...I am absolutely thankful for the blessings Ive been given...the opportunities that came my way...the silly mistakes that made me a stronger and perhaps a better person.

The only question is...why am I feeling the way I feel?


Monday, October 20, 2008

My friend and I finally started our first day of what I call a 'permanent' or 'my never ending' attempt to lose weight and be fit...and oh my god!! Im so not fit!!! My friend said that if im not fit then i wont be able to reach the top of the first hill...which makes me feel better as I try to catch my breath at the top. lol. it means theres room for improvement..hehe.

So, may this be the beginning to whatever i dream of achieving...;p


Sunday, October 19, 2008

God's Boxes

I have in my hands two boxes,
Which God gave me to hold.
He said, 'Put all your sorrows in the black box,
And all your joys in the gold.'

I heeded His words, and in the two boxes,
Both my joys and sorrows I stored,
But though the gold became heavier each day,
The black was as light as before.

With curiosity, I opened the black,
I wanted to find out why,
And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole,
Which my sorrows had fallen out by.

I showed the hole to God, and mused,
'I wonder where my sorrows could be!'
He smiled a gentle smile and said,
'My child, they're all here with me..'

I asked God, why He gave me the boxes,
Why the gold and the black with the hole?
'My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings,
The black is for you to let go.'

So let's start focusing on our blessings and be grateful xxx

Thursday, October 16, 2008

We had a lecture series this morning for military personnels and civilians and followed by my first trip to the training institute at Penanjong in the afternoon for our guest to give lecture to the junior cadets. it was interesting especially at the training institute as the cadets were more enthusiastic to ask questions during the Q&A.

Anyway, now m killing time at Cheezbox before its time for me to bring the guest to our dinner venue. To drive all d way home would be alang this is the next best option.

And so I got time to sit and reflect on myself..(which ive been doing alot lately...and sometimes too much for my own liking..;p)

Anyway, these are the areas which I need to pay more attention:

1) to enhance my knowledge

2) and more 'maintain' it in my head...meaning i have to work on my memory 'power' and work on lessening the eefectiveness of my 'built-in block system' or my 'autodelete'

3)Time management - I believe I've improve compared to how I was back in April 2008. However, more need to be done in terms of dividing tasks and using my time efficiently...and all this goes back to my 'brilliant' speed to blocking and auto-deleting information in myhead.

4) If there s such a thing called 'Internal Anger Management Course' or something like that, then I ll need to join it.

5)and to work on my greatest weaknesses...:
a) my self confidence
b) my indecisiveness
c) my lack of enthusiasm for certain important things in life
d) on how I can easily get bored of things. I need to find something that will keep me interested for a long time.

Anyway, its nearly 7pm now..I have to go. to be continued... xxx