I dont really have anything to say...but when its late and u cant sleep and programmes on the tv are boring then..what better can u do..:)..so i'll try not to write too long...;p

Anyway, I was bloghopping earlier on and came across a blog where one of the topics mentioned by the blogger was about people being 'afraid'. She mentioned that most people..are always afraid that if they choose A, manatau B would have a better offer and vice versa. We are afraid that if we make a choice now..then we might be missing something else or overlooked something that might be better for us out there. And some of us are constantly jealous of another person when she/he earns more..or offered with more opportunities to expand and explore her/his potentials etc.

I guess it is just human nature...not wanting to be miss out...being left behind.. always wants to do things perfectly and be the best they can possibly ever be..and some even go to a point of trying everything out..trying to take in more than what they can actually handle. But, are we at fault for wanting the best for ourself, our family and friends?

Maybe it is how most of us were brought up...where if we score 98% in our exam.. then some or maybe most parents will say..'eh, mana cukup tu..100% baru ya'..or they will say 'thats great...but there is still room for improvement'.. or another senario 'thats great..berapa kawan mu c bulan dapat?' and if we say that he/she scores higher...then the next line will be..eh,how come u cant score like her/him' or somewhere along that line. And I bet many of us are familiar with this situation. And it doesnt stops there... sometimes some of us come to a situation where we are competing with our dearest cousins...just because we are in the same year...doing the same course and all that. But of course, our parents are just doing that for our kebaikan.

Or if its not the way we are brought up, maybe it is just the feeling of being accepted, praised and given attention, feeling appreciated and all that...that makes us wants to be better by the minute. we are always looking for something that will make us better than the day before. So is it human nature to be highly
competitive, sometimes to the point of being selfish, sometimes to the point of hurting others to ensure that u get to the 'place' where u wana be.

Im not saying that its bad because I think it is good that we want to do the best and achieve more with our talents or capabilities..or selagi mampu as ppl always cakap...but I guess it is also important not to lose our perspectives...coz sometimes when we aim 'big'...we tend to forget n fail to appreciate all the little things in life that are also equally important.

When we achieve something small...it doesnt makes it less important. Instead, it is all these little achievements that may be a GATEWAY to bigger achievements...who knows right..;)

As my cousins have said to me...take baby steps along the way, in the end..you will be able to finish what u are doing or be where you wana be.

Anyway, I better stop now coz I think ive went off from the main issue I wanted to address earlier on..haha...have fun. Will write more soon.

p/s: To the kakaks...makan kan kueh teow di jingchew...Im ever sooo craving for it..;) Miss u all..bye

Selected songs that I enjoy



I made this MySpace Music Player at MyFlashFetish.com.

My weekend was quite interesting this week...went to London on thursday to settle few stuffs that needed to be sorted out with Brunei Hall. Then it was more of a relaxing week..doing things that are relaxing.

Friday
Spend the day with Idot checking out one of the libraries in London...it was lawa and trendy.

went cruising...ate di Bella Italia where the food was nyaman and we were kelaparan..lol..pics will be uploaded next time.

went around from Covent Garden...wanted to get this henna tattoo...but ada this scary and probably perverted guy..so cancelled the plan. lol. Then went to Picadilly Circus (i think)..and to Bond Street etc... And we were craving for ice cream..so we were hunting for the best deal...and the winner was Thortons...it was nyaman and large portion..haha.

Saturday
Spend half of my day in 'my' room..then half of the day jalan jalan cruising Selfridges. And then had late lunch with my friend, Ben arah this Syrian restaurant..the food was not bad. And since it was raining, we decide to watch dvd..'the Guardian'..it was a good movie. definitely a must see!

Sunday
Woke up late again..but the moment i heard the receptionist mentioned kari nanas and ayam rendang will be the menu for lunch..i hurried up and mandi and head downstairs..lol..nasib jua ampit the 2nd last ticket..haha...and the kari nanas was good. I miss eating proper food. lol.

Then spent my afternoon di Internet Cafe..lol..yea, I know..I should have done someting better with my time in London like jalan jalan..but I dont really know where to go. Im not a shopping freak..plus budget limited..so a day round the shops is sort of enough for me...;p

Apa lagi ah..hmm..oh...this time di London..I've been trying out the bus to get around London...its been fun..although i need more time to be really confident. Lol.

Ok then, thats all for now. Bye.

One litre of tears

Ive just finished watching a Japanese drama with the title above...its a MUST see drama. This drama is based on a true story about this young girl who has sooo many things to look forward to in life...and her life was just starting when she got sick with an incurable disease. Ive cried my eyes out throughout the whole 11 episodes..as the story makes u feel as if ure in the movie..and feeling what she is feeling..no wonder its called 'one litre of tears'..;p

She is such a strong girl...and was able to stay optimistic and fought her way to live on. The way her whole family face and cope with it is very touching...each of them supporting each other and still manage to look at the brighter side of things during the lowest point of their lives.

It makes me think that...we do take things for granted most of time and tend to be unappreciative with the things we have. We want to be taller, slimmer, richer and all that...when they are people who cant even walk or talk properly but are still happy and still besyukur..although the things that they can do are limited.

And us..we can talk, walk, run and achieve many things in life...but we often give out excuses to run away from doing things..thinking n believing that what we could have done today...we can still do it tomorrow.

And the things our family have done for us...how many of us have actually thanked them for worrying about our health, worrying about our revision during our exams with endless words of encouragement, whether we have eaten or not, whether we have enough pocket money..., waiting for us to be back home when we r out having fun with friends,..and the list just goes on and on.

And on top of that, they are always there during the times we need a shoulder to cry on when we r sad, a pat on the back for a job well done or hugs for encouragement..
gicing us honest opinions to improve ourselves etc etc etc, and yet...many of us seems to take their existence for granted.

well, im just rambling on here...need to sleep..its already late..im tired, got to go.

Frustration

I am very frustrated with the way things are going...I havent been able to stay focus on my work...all I need is just a few hours of solid concentration and I know my work will be done.

But..no, I am only able to concentrate for 10-15mins...with breaks or angan angan about i dont know what in between...etc etc..and Ive been sitting down on my ass the whole afternoon..and now its already 11.40pm...and my work is only ard a quarter done!!! Time is running out.......whats the matter with me???

Random updates

1) Went to Pizza Hut for Reza's bday

It was fun...good food n get to meet the Bruneians whom I havent seen for a long time due to exams and the holiday..;).. Anyway, Reza...hope u had fun and do enjoy ur bday present :)

2)Im frustrated with uni work

I've been working on this essay since monday kali..but I cant seem to focus on my work...god knows why...been reading and trying to type...but instead on progressing and adding on the number of words, i keep on editing and editing...so, in the end...i still have the same number of words...hmmm...but i do plan to continue it right after this..and give it another try...coz im running out of time..and i still have another one to do.

3)Im pms-ing

I've been craving for chocolates....brownies from tesco....digestive chocolates...n more chocolates...maybe this is why i have been indecisive abt doing my work... unable to focus and feeling as if i have a lot of things on my mind although i cant really pin point whats exactly bothering me...

4) The drama series im currently into...tho ive only watch a few episodes..;)..i love the music..



5) I'm currently deprived of horror movies..and I want to watch



and this...hopefully it is a good one



and this...



Ok then, thats all for now. Lets pray that I will stay awake to do my work now ;) Nyte guys

Something to put a smile on ur face :)